On that day in the afternoon my mom went to others home and my dad went to school. Ohh, I forgot to say about my dad. My dad is a Government Teacher. He very much loves me. He had high confident about me in all aspects not only in studies. But I have ashamed that I fooled my parents. Twice I had tried to attempt suicide while hanging my neck to the roof, but I could not able to do this with fear. On the afternoon of that day nobody in my home and I got a poison bottle which is kept to use for the trees in my home. I pour it in the glass and started to drink. It is in bluish color. Just 5 ml of the poison went into my throat and suddenly started to burn my throat and closing my eyes. I went infront of the mirror and showed myself. It is going to blurring; I could not able to see my face clearly. Ohh. It is really very very painful.
I ran to my neighbor house and called aunty and told her that I took poison. Suddenly they called auto and bring me to hospital. There in hospital the doctor let me drink some salt water and removed all the poison from my stomach and admitted me in the hospital. But I am in unconscious for almost 6 days. I could not able identify anybody. I was completely on the bed. They put a catheter into my penny for my urination. After my recovery and before the discharging a male nurse brings me into room and tried to remove the catheter but it didn’t coming. He used to inject the water into the catheter for free removing from my penny. While injecting the water into the catheter a sound has came like tap. He didn’t tell me what happened while removing the catheter. He simply told me that you may go now. BUT AFTER TWO YEARS I KNOWN THAT WHAT HAPPENED ON THAT TIME WITH THAT STUPID MALE NURSE.
I was struggled very much while urinating. Its very slow flow and sometimes very much painful in my penny. I too didn’t took care about this matter and lived and hold all my painful feelings inside me. One day after two years I started to journey to my cousins home while sitting in the last seat of the bus. The road is very bad to that village. My body has completely shacked in the journey and I could not able to control my urine. When I feel that I have to urinate I must have to run away to bathroom. I went for doctor in my place and he could not able to find, what happening. He advised for big hospital. I went to SVIMS Tirupati for better advice. They scanned my pennies and watched inside in the monitor and found that something is stricken inside it. OHHH My God !!!!! They shocked and then only I understand that these all happened because of that STUPID Male Nurse. He left a little bit of catheter inside my penny !!!!!! while removing the catheter when I was admitted in the hospital.
But the SVIMS doctors has removed it with minor operation and after 5 days I was discharged from this hospital. After this my urine flow is normal and felt happy. I lived happily for almost 7 years while doing job in a Government Sector as Typist cum computer operator as temporarily. I worked very hardly at day and nights with some inconveniences like bad smell of sweat and some viruses in the skin. Again I started to struggle with my body in the year 2002. Having joint pains, weakness, anxiety, fear, suddenly getting sweat. Ohh. It could not append to any body even to my enemy. I stopped my job and started to run to the hospitals. I went many big hospitals like CMC, Manipal, St.Johns, Apolo in every department in the hospital. No one doctor has diagnosed my disease and they let me to spend huge amounts. They done all investigations like X-rays, Blood tests, Scanning etc., but no use. I ran to Kerala for Ayurvedic treatment for one month and I leaved my place and also my family too also and spend more money. But no use.